“4:00 clock, coffee?”, asked julie. Yeah, what’s wrong i asked her as i thrown the paper at M. It hit straight at his head. Julie still staring at me. She just think that i may be leading this to a new level. But, i’m not. Friends hang out right?. Maybe not you but he can take this the other way around, julie said. He shook his head for an okay. “Give some thought to it, amyra”, julie said. I will, i assured her. I wanted straight hair as julie. As we were talking, “get out”, our physics sir yelled at someone. And that was M. Yeah, whenever a teacher says get out it would be Mihil and akil. They were kind of close. What if we were more than friends… what if we love each other…what can possibly be wrong?…
“Find the power through the toaster” my physics sir’s boring sums made us sleep. You know the wonderful feeling when you sleep in the last bench. A crushed piece of paper came landing on my head. It was from amyra. Yup, we became friends infact, close friends when we sang ‘as long as u love me’ in class chorus. We laughed about it, introduced and hung out. Yeah and the piece of paper was saying that “coffee at 4:00 outside school”. Her cute eyes and anxious hands over her curly hair looking at me for an okay. I simply nodded. We usually exchange glances during classes.
Akil my closest friend (the only person in the world who knows all my crushes and love) smiling and nodding at me. Asked him “what?”. Is something going between you two?, he asked. I was expecting this question for some time. I nodded. And i told him about how i feel about her, her eyes. “Get out”, physics sir yelled at us. I thought finally a good decision. So?, akil said outside the class. What? , i knew where he is going. “I’m not gonna propose her” i said. If you’re in love better say it now, said akil.
So the question is “how?”
“They are the boys who can make anything happen here in school, amyra”, said julie. Then who am i, the headmaster’s daughter i thought to myself. As i stared at the boys playing julie started to cry. It was a chalk and the boy thrown that chalk was staring at me rather than asking sorry to her. What an asshole he must be i thought to myself.
After school, that evening i saw him talking to julie. I asked what he said. “He didn’t mean to hurt my eyes” julie said. What is his name again i asked. Mihil a boy shouted behind us, he was standing there checking us.
Somehow at the end of the day i end up thinking about him.
“Last bench is mine”, said mihil. The usual occupy of the last bench by the wolf pack of the 11th boys on the first day of school. The usual first day trivia going on. Break time is the new official entertainment time of the school. Playing with chalkpiece and beating up friends are the best. “Ouch”, a piece of chalk from M’s hand came down on her eyes making her cry. Amyra, a girl with an adorable big cute eyes and pink lips, sitting next to the girl who took the chalk in her eyes. M’s eyes fell on her.
That day M felt something different. Her eyes was still there…
“You can close your eyes to reality but not to memories.”
-Stanislaw Jerzy Lec
Again i saw her. Her fingers going through her long black hair. Her dark eyes remained the same. Can’t just take her out of my mind. Should i propose to her?. Nope, that won’t be appropriate. But she wasn’t in my dreams. She was my dreams. I was restless, with wandering thoughts. I feared this may lead me again to the first time it happened.
“If i’m the gollum..you would be my precious..💔💔”